unbutton the jeans.
turn up the radio.
prop a guitar against the door because the knob doesn't work anymore.
red moon.
right turns.
brother had too much wine.
troy ate four squares of ravioli and that is all.
brother ran over cow on I-40.
amelia didn't kiss matt until their wedding day.
snipers, stones, key lime pie.
i wore yellow shoes.
killed pack of cigarettes in two days.
counting backwards a lot.
scratched europe off my list.
pissed.
no bread in six days.
awesome.
no boy in a billion days.
not awesome.
thigh is tingly.
earlobes sore.
cheated.
wafers.
headaches.
budgets.
not meant to be editor.
want to quit.
can't quit.
fuck.
want rum.
no rum here.
fuck.
more nerves than brains.
had dream i was crashing in a plane.
woke up totally out of breath.
went back to sleep.
then dreamt of holding hands with
johnny depp and young bob dylan.
one on either side.
but then they went home together.
neverending story part II isn't all that great.
neither are meth addicts.
miss friends.
lots.
family here.
going crazy.
want summer.
bad.
want islands and popsicles and trains.
want to record hello kitty voicemail for aaron.
want to think coherently again someday.
unlikely.